Thursday, March 02, 2017

Garden Boys

Looking back into my childhood,I think it was very color full.But if I say that the most indelible ones were in green ,it wouldn't be an hyperbole at all.As cliche as it might sound,Memories have always been green,evergreen.Life has always been green.When I search back to your roots, I could easily find it bleeding green still .

If I go searching for my oldest memory it would be definitely be in my Amma's garden.I could vividly recollect a picture of me Appa had taken of in the Garden looking above with all the plants in the background. But it wasn't just a mere backdrop for a picture.We grew up amongst the plants in my Amma's garden.She loved them like us.She loved the green ones more than the flowering plants.
The tiny leafy begonias defined miniature for me ,their tiny flowers are amusing me even now.The garden had all in it,leaves of all colors and size.It is indeed a tropical haven.
I remember the big trees at home which our Grandmother had planted.They were huge,when i started to look upwards, I saw them sprawling above the sky.Life was opening up more of its vistas before me
The evergreen pulimaram at the east side of the plot had how many birds as refugees.Trees which had small white shady flowers.Still the leaves of the Kadachakka are the most ornamental tree leaves you could ever see.

Memories are strange,you don't realize them when they are being made.You realize them later.
As I migrated to the Middle East several years back the memories of home and homeland has always been green .The Great Malayali nostalgia as everyone says has been the Monsoon.
Falling off from the tiled roof of my home.I have watched it endlessly from the window.Our home did not have balconies back then.But we had the east facing long window.I could sit and watch rain pour onto the trees and plants.Making them a shiny blurry backdrop of emerald.It is a sight that will die only with me.SO dear that I will hold onto it forever.I now yearn for such a sight like that in this sprawling city.The bliss of it is unmatched to anything I have come across later in my life.


Now the pulimaram has fallen,so not many birds chirp.More and more trees were cut.Coming home is daunting in this scorching heat.I have come to prefer the conditioned air in Dubai to that at home. The evergreen tropical dream of our land is just an imagery right now.It seems to be ending very fast.Its a scary nightmare.I doubt if my son will ever seen the greenery and rains as I could see.It would be the biggest of losses for him .The green colours have started to fade,just as a backdrop to our lives.

Every Malayali has a green story like mine ,its our inheritance and that's what makes us what we are.More than a fashionable headline I believe that "go green" should identify with all malayalis as going back to their roots. Finding their own heritage.Why is that we have to go for the packaged goodness of Ayurveda which we had available fresh, not so long ago.As a friend of mine said once a popular toothpaste brand has come up with Charcoal based toothpaste. That is exactly where we left brushing our teeth for this same toothpaste brand.The freshness of charcoal and mango leaves still rings fresh in my mind.The organic way of living can be quite tough,but that is the way we enjoyed things before all the package bought goodness. Only that we didn't know that this was called the organic way !!!

We all can search ourselves and find the point where we have chosen to walk away from that green image for the sake of many things.But its time to walk back find our roots.The roots of greenness.Of nature.Of life.If we don't walk back together it will be betrayal of our lineage and upbringing.I still rewind my mind to that point in time , Appa holding  his camera down from the terrace,me looking up and smiling for a wonderful picture.The plants smiled just like me ,with me the innocent child like smile.

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Desert Hues

The vast expanse of sands unraveled
It shone as in antique bronze
Faded at ends, shiny at edges,
As a witness of times bygone.
Wind kept blowing over the crests
Making crescents and in turn ripples
Up steeper and down shallower,
Like an ocean of bronze and brown.
Under my feet it slipped
Loose sand-steeped I stood
As steep as in memories I have.
The sun kept shining afar.
My gaze picked up all these dunes
Farther and beyond it could go.
The myriad colors of sand grains
Brown,red and black
Carcasses of goat are they ?
Lie in this sand dead
And green clouds of grass live.
The old skeletal trees had stood
The sun, the sand and the time
The recent trails left foot prints on sand
Only to be wiped off by sand breeze
The flames of the fire have started to dim
And the sun has started to descend
The horizon blurred in the sand
In crimson , the scarlet and berry hues.
As inevitable it is a good bye
However still a poetic one.  

Monday, November 16, 2015

Flood !


I wish it just flooded here too...
I could see the water rising slowly
Small pools approaching my feet
I stood as still as a log
Underneath my feet it just slowly rose
I could feel it rise....
Rise up along my feet till my knees
I felt the cold chill in the water.
I would just let the water sink me
Sink me as a whole into it
I wish it could just take me.
I feel the weight being lifted off me by water
Just like a log I wish to float in it
Up and down along its tide
That vortex looks like an egress,
from these currents that haunt my mind.
They have haunted me,
More than these waters will ever do.
I wish it could take me along
Took me away far from all that
All that I no longer need for myself.
Far across the big tree had drowned itself
The last hope of my survival
All that remains is the last twigs
Its leaves and branches afloat
The tree is just vanishing at sight
I had wished it stood for me...
How you would now be without even a shade?
The uprooted mighty tree of enlightenment
Just another tree in this wreckage
Without the sand and the roots
Its not even a tree ,but just a log
Let this flood join the sea
Liberate me and the tree,which I'd hoped,
Would liberate me one day.
Now I travel alongside it,
Into the wide expanse of the ocean.
Where these waters would meet the sun
Where I could watch it rise and set
Where it would again color the skies
In bright reds and yellows....
I wish it could flood and take me there.






Sunday, October 04, 2015

Stars in our life

Far away in the seas sun was going down
And down went my dreams sinking 
Far into these desert dunes 
Lone under these sand laden cliffs,
Thoughts just vanished like dust .
Of all the times I saw the starry skies
From down when I had watched amazed.
Gazed at the beauty the nature withheld,
Revealed at times with great grandiose.
From those sandy beaches of Arabia Gulf to 
The great valleys of the Western Ghats.
Glinting in those dark night skies;
Millions & thousands dotting the horizon.
Beyond us, beyond the sky, until it's end.
From the first couplet as a child 
The stars held the imagery,all of them
Learned that they decided our fate
Yet romanced them under the open
Drank with them under the skies.
Inebriation had filled my senses.
Time filled the blank spaces 
It had flown like those stars.
A shooting star just crossed the sky,
Amongst the stars it was like a flash of sword
I made a wish , A wish for life 
A wish I could just lay under these shores 
Of this earth ,forever watching these skies.
A wish to forego the daily trample 
To just be a believer in this nature
It's beauty , its mysteries 

Saturday, October 03, 2015

When in one's and thousands



When in ones and thousands you walk
The weary streets of multitudes
Least are you the noticed one 
Hence the strifes are your and only yours.
What we know of others lives?
What they have , and have not now.